99 Days Preggo!

According to my due date, I am 99 days pregnant.  Crazy to believe!  I'm starting to finally show every day...when I wake up there's a bit of a baby belly there.  It's easier to think "oh, she might be pregnant" now rather than "damn that bitch ate a fatty lunch!".  

Also on the plus side, I think I'm starting to enjoy this.  I'm no longer getting sick and hurling all the time (MS can kiss my fat ass!), and besides the crazy hunger I'm doing good.  The early first trimester exhaustion is gone as well... although I am still going to bed by 8pm every. freaking. night.  And a big meal makes me want to pass out faster than holding my breath!  Having constant food on hand has been a struggle so I end up getting too hungry and then gorging.  

I've been thinking a lot about Christmas lately.  Not just this year's holiday, but Christmas Future! EVERYONE knows this is my absolute, hands down, favorite time of the year.  Thinking of the babes being here next year and all the year's we'll get to celebrate... I'm constantly wiping tears away from my eyes. Imagining the look on their faces the first year they get a bicycle, opening Christmas pj's, sharing our traditions with them (hot chocolate while driving around looking at Christmas lights, anyone?).  Damn... there I go again.  As scary as it all seems sometimes knowing we have two on the way, I feel just as blessed. These babes are going to be so loved and well taken care of not only by us but by our entire families.

IF changes the way you view things... everything.  Towards the end of our journey my expectations of family totally changed.  Where once I was adamant we were having three children and I was carrying all three and no c-section would ever "tarnish" my birth experience, I was just begging for one.  I didn't care how we made that happen... adoption, baby snatchings, a nice stranger leaving a basket on our front door... I did not care.  I think that makes me see everything now as so special and sacred.  Birthday's, holiday's, Sunday dinners, first trips to the zoo... Hey, I'm an emotional gal as it is and I know the hormones aren't helping but damn.  This is going to be so effing awesome.  

Hubs and I made our second official trek into BBRUS this weekend and got to test out our stroller and car seats.  (By the by, if you've never operated that stuff before.... that shit is hard to figure out!)  The babes are going to need so much crap! But, I love it.  This is what I was put on this earth to do, what I have been dreaming about for years.  It's still a little early for buying a lot of stuff but I'll be scoping out Black Friday sales for the major items: cribs, dresser, stroller, and car seats. Figure it can't hurt!  Plus, there might be some awesome scores on diapers... I need to get our stock up!  One blog I read broke down how many diapers and what sizes you need for the first year.... times two we'll need about 6,000 diapers!!! I don't plan to have that many sitting in a closet but we've got plenty of storage room and I plan to stock up as much as possible.  Best tip I've gotten so far?  Buy lots of different brands so if you find you or babe doesn't like one kind, you aren't stuck with a year's worth of wasted moolah.  That, and Target and Walmart cheapies are pretty awesome.  Thank you fellow mamma's and papa's! 

All in all, I'm feeling really good and really excited.  I just can't wait for them to be here!  There was a freshly bathed four month old in my office on Friday and let me tell you, he smelled AMAZEBALLS!  I need to stop wishing the time to go faster since we'll never have this time again, but it's so hard to be patient and wait.

Love!

Trick or Treat!

Happy Halloween!  I loved handing out candy this year.  Last year I despised it LOL (I swear, it was just annoying)!  Cutest, sweetest, most polite trick or treaters ever.  First year in I don't know how long we actually went through all of our candy.

Relaxing now to Simpsons Halloween of Horrors and Charlie Brown's The Great Pumpkin.

Doesn't get much better than this!

... only 8 more weekend until Christmas, and 5 more Friday's until Black Friday.  Yes, I'm already starting to plan.

12 Weeks- Update YO!

How far along? 12w2d

Babies are the size of: Two plumbs and up to 3" each.  :)

Total weight gain I still haven't gotten back up to my pre-pregnancy weight but I have a feeling it's coming.  I'm finally eating more!

Maternity clothes: Uhm yes please.  Everything feels like it cuts me off right in the middle, and if it's not stretchy lounge pants forget it.  Works pants are becoming interesting!

Stretch marks: Thank god no!

Sleep: Still doing good here.

Best moment this week? Last week we had our first appointment with my regular OB.  The place is awesome and so is my doc.  We got the low-down on what to expect: being seen every 4 weeks PLUS an ultrasound every time :)  Anatomy scan in 6-8 weeks. Got some samples for smaller pre-natal vitamins (I've been gagging down my regulars).  The belly is starting to come out!

Miss anything? SUSHI!  There is almost not a day that goes by that I'm not pining for sushi.  I don't like the deep-fried, cooked rolls so I'm pretty much SOL.  Sad face.

Movement: Ha, not even close.

Food cravings:  Naked steak queso burrito from Qdoba, with the tortilla on the side shredded up in the bowl.  Yes, that specific!

Have you started to show yet? It's starting!  I still get quite the "food baby" after eating, but I'm having to unbutton my work pants and I'm rounding out I think.

Gender: 6-8 weeks until the anatomy scan!

Belly button in or out? In still, but I am getting that donut look under my shirts.  So not cute.

Wedding rings: on or off? ON!

Looking forward to: Feeling better!  The MS is pretty much gone- woo!  Funny when I was getting nauseated all day I never threw up.  Now, I throw up almost every morning but I'm not feeling sick.  I'm starting to feel more normal and I'm eating more too.  Looking forward to out next appointment always, and I cannot wait to find out what these babies are!

10 Weeks- Update, YO!

How far along? 10w,3d.  Honestly, every day feels like a milestone.

Babies are the size of: Two strawberries!  1 1/2 inches in length each, they can stretch and roll, and their taste buds are starting to form.

Total weight gain  Well today, I'm about -7 lbs.  I got down to 9lbs lost.  The morning sickness was pretty rough during weeks 7-8, but it's not as bad now.  Now, I get super hungry but NOTHING sounds good. Blech.

Maternity clothes: During one of my fatty-bloat days last weekend I bought a few shirts, one pair of work pants, and one pair of lounge pants.  I am looooving the lounge pants.

Stretch marks: Thank god no!

Sleep: I was literally thinking the other day how awesome it's been that I've been sleeping normally.  Then BAM... 4-6am rolls around and I have to pee so damn bad I'm in pain.

Best moment this week? Going FB public yesterday.  I loved the comments Hubs got on his FB way more than mine!

Miss anything? SUSHI!  There is almost not a day that goes by that I'm not pining for sushi.  I don't like the deep-fried, cooked rolls so I'm pretty much SOL.  Sad face.

Movement: Ha, not even close.

Food cravings: French fries, chocolate milkshakes, and maybe a Taco Bell Cheesy Gordita Crunch.

Have you started to show yet? No not really.  I'm in the awkward fat-pooch looking phase I try to make look like a belly.  LOL.  Some days I look normal and some days there's something there.  I am loving the pregnancy boobs though :)

Gender: We won't be able to tell for quite a while even though the babies fully have their ish developed!

Belly button in or out? In still, but I am getting that donut look under my shirts.  So not cute.

Wedding rings: on or off? ON!

Looking forward to: Our next appointment 10/22.  We've been lucky getting to see the babies every two weeks.  That won't continue so I'm happy we have at least one more coming!  I'm also really looking forward to looking pregnant.  It's hard to explain, but sometimes it feels like I just made the whole thing up or it's not true.  I know I have pictures and I've been sick, but something a little more concrete would make me feel better :)

Two Years, Two Babies

Well the cat is officially out of the bag!  We made it Facebook official yesterday and announced our twin pregnancy.  Prepare to see a lot more blogging from me; I feel like I am finally "free". Fuck Yeah!

Hubs and I decided to start trying to conceive in September 2011.  That was TWO YEARS AGO!  We worked hard to get my Thyroid condition under control as it is medically proven to cause issues.  Still... the months went by.  Struggling with infertility (IF) has been the hardest thing I have ever faced in my life, that we've faced in our marriage, harder than anything I have ever known.  It's a taboo subject rarely talked about in the open yet millions of couples silently suffer.  I was fortunate not only to have the most supportive man possible, but also close friends, my mother, and an on-line community of women who get it.  

IF does not mean your only option is IVF (test-tube babies, anyone?).  That couldn't be farther than the truth and our twins were not conceived through IVF.  I feel like that is important to say so that stereotype can be squashed.  We got really lucky!  After trying for two years (ok well 1 year, 11 months but ehh who's counting?) and suffering a loss, we were blessed with the two-for-one special.  

"At first I was afraid, I was petrified..." I was scared shitless!  I had told hubs over and over, all while laughing at his adamant "NO!" that I wanted twins and wouldn't it be so great and blah, blah, blah.  Then at that first ultrasound we both saw it before the nurse said "No wonder you are getting so sick, there's two!" The next week I was utterly terrified.  What had I gotten myself into?  Was I up for this? Could I do it? Oh god, what was I going to do?  Hubs was excited from the get-go!  Even through my one hysterical break down he has been by my side encouraging and taking care of me.  I knew I loved this man, but the father version of him is beyond anything I could have imagined!

I feel so blessed.  Our babies will always have someone by their side, someone to laugh and play with, someone to fight with, someone to keep them entertained besides Mom and Dad.  I know it will be rough in the beginning but we are soooo up for it!

Four Weeks- Found out we were expecting right before our annual family camping trip!  

BTDubs: non-alcoholic beer is beyond gross.

First u/s at 7w4d.  You're taking a look at baby frog and baby alien!

Hubs got this for my desk at work and surprised me.  I get to see Baby A and Baby B everyday.

First attempt at the weekly bump photos.  That is alll bloat there!

Found a cute app on my phone instead of making a chalkboard.

Second u/s, 9w4d.  So much bigger already!  We still have an alien, but now also a teddy bear.

Or hippo.

Baby A!

Baby B!  Awesome profile shot.