You Know You're Pregnant When...

It's 7:20am and you're making instant mashed potatoes to take to work.  For breakfast.  Along with left over pork and applesauce.

And it's not the first time you've done it.

I Am Losing My Damn Mind

Helllllllo pregnancy hormones.  Where have you been hiding the last 7 months?  Little, petty things set me off.  Don't even get me started on crying over sad things... hysterical, hyperventilating, high pitched voice crying. Sniffling, ugly face crying.  

Exhibit A-

Last night I had my plate from dinner on the couch, and the end piece of some garlic bread on a a napkin. Ruxin doesn't get people food and unless you leave something at his level or straight up on the floor; he knows better than to try and eat people food.  He may sniff around but he's never tried to eat something off my plate.  Well, that was until last night!  Rux came over and started sniffing the napkin, then straight up tried to eat the bread!  I yelled "no" at him and swung my leg over to push him back (I couldn't reach him with my arm fast enough or without hurting myself cause of this huge ol' belly).  Instead of my foot nicely reaching his chest to give him a little push back, my heel clonked down on the top of his skull.  It made an awful bone-on-bone noise.  I froze and stared at him while he walked away around the ottoman.  Hubs was sitting there and started to kinda laugh/tease me about beating up the dog.  Ruxin immediately came right back around the ottoman towards me and I just started bawling hysterically.  I couldn't catch my breath, couldn't see through the tears, and started sucking in air like a gulping fish.  I couldn't stop!  Hubs tried asking me what was wrong and my responses were so high pitched and interrupted by trying to breathe he had to ask me 3 or 4 times before he could make any sense of me!  I kept telling him how I didn't mean to hit him and I'm a terrible person and I'm going to be a terrible mom and I was so sorry.  The whole time Ruxin is sitting right there letting me love and pet on him; he was completely fine.  It was awful for me.... I felt like I was about to hyperventilate!  Hubs had to come over and try to talk me off the ledge.  I smeared makeup everywhere, was snotty from crying, and soaked my shirt with tears.  I totally overreacted to it and I know that now. Ruxin was completely fine and just wanted to play but I just couldn't stop crying.  I even told a friend at work about it and started crying when talking to her.

Exhibit B-

Tonight I left my cell phone at work.  I was stressing out because a friend was supposed to be stopping by and I couldn't remember if it was before or after a certain time.  Plus I was trying to make dinner.  Hubs went to go grab his phone so I could text her just to confirm and see if she wanted dinner.  I go to grab a pan out to put on the stove and I dropped it on the tile with this huge crash.  I instantly started crying and going into freak out mode again.  Hubs came down with his phone and had to calm me down once again.  Over a freaking frying pan..  I just can't keep it together anymore.

30 Weeks- Update, YO!

How far along? 30w exactly.

Babies are the size of: A small pumpkin.  Had an appointment today- little boy is 3lbs 5oz, and little girl is 3lbs 12oz!   

Total weight gain: 20lbs.  Saw my OB yesterday and she was a little concerned about my lack of weight gain and wanted to make sure I'm eating enough.  I did just start getting super hungry again like I was in the first trimester so I think the weight is coming.  (After today's appointment and the babes doing SO WELL I'm not as concerned.) Luckily it's all belly weight.  I don't have a pregnant ass or face!

Stretch marks: None yet.  I'm getting vein-y on my stomach and boobs but no stretch marks.

Sleep: At this point getting a goods night sleep is like a treat.    

Best moment this week? TODAY!  The appointment at the fetal imaging place went amazing.  Our US tech was different than who we've had before and she was so fun.  My cervix is still measuring long and closed so I'm not showing any signs of early labor!  WOO!  Both my babes progressed perfectly from where they each measured 5 weeks ago meaning little girl is still bigger (which is good meaning they are still growing at the same rate and neither one has slowed down).  Little boy is right on track for a singleton baby and little girl is ahead for a singleton.  Seriously, the appointment couldn't have gone any better.  They were moving and kicking like crazy, no sign of any issues, and I have lots of fluid.  

It was so cool to see them move on screen at the same time I was feeling it.  Little boy was "practice breathing" and we got a clear shot of his lungs moving.  

They cooperated this time and we were able to see their faces in 3D!  As soon as she turned it on it took my breath away. Chubby cheeks, lips, and cute little noses.  OMG it was beyond words.  Even without the 3D when she was looking at their faces it was so easy to see their features.  No more little blobs.  

I get to start doing stress tests so I'll be seeing my OB every week starting at 32 weeks to be monitored for contractions. I don't have to go back for fetal imaging for another 4 weeks, but then it will be weekly so I'll be having two appointments every. single. week.  They are NOT messing around with twins, let me tell you.  That just means we are getting close to babies in our arms!

Got the official word yesterday I passed my three-hour glucose test.  My OB did have me attempt it a second time and thank god I was able to get through it.  Hubs played a HUGE part in that and I know if it wasn't for him I wouldn't have made it through.  I wasn't even close to failing the three hour test so no gestational diabetes for me and I can go back to getting milkshakes :).  YUMM.

Miss anything: Not much right now.  Better sleep would be nice but I'm starting to get used to not really sleeping.  OH wait... I take that back... I miss being able to reach my feet without it hurting (so I just don't) and being able to shave my legs comfortably.  Yeah.... thanks belly!  

Movement: All day, every day!  God I am going to miss this so much after they are born.     

Food cravings:  I don't think there's anything particular I'm craving, just more food in general.  

Belly button in or out? Still going with the half in, half out look.  So hot.  

Wedding rings: on or off? On and it's starting to leave marks.  At night it's almost impossible to get it off.  I can't imagine not wearing it!

Looking forward to: We are doing maternity photos on Sunday, and then next weekend is my baby shower.  I was thinking this morning I should start packing the diaper bag soon.  That means picking out their going home outfits!  That also makes me realize how much I need to get done in the next few weeks before they get here.  Really I need to finish washing clothes and getting them put away; that will make the nursery way less cluttered feeling.

C-section won't be scheduled for any sooner than 38 weeks so 4/24 is our birthday unless I start contracting on my own.

Out little girl!

Both babies measurements :)

Our little boy!

Baby Shower

Cutest. Invites. Ever. !!  I covered up the host's personal info.... but this is sooooo me it's not even funny! Shit, this is really happening isn't it?

27 Weeks- Update, YO!

How far along? 27w3d

Babies are the size of: A cabbage?  Hard to picture since a cabbage is so round.  Should be about 2lbs each now and their eyelashes are growing!   

Total weight gain: 17lbs as of this morning.  Let me tell you... I'm getting pretty damn uncomfortable! It's not constant, thank god, but every evening I'm struggling.  The lovely relaxin hormone is playing fast and loose with my hips too.  I can ONLY sleep on my left side at night, sometimes slightly on my back/leaning left.  As soon as I lay on my right side it feels like my hip bones are being crushed/breaking. I'm not even kidding.  Laying straight on my back for a bit it happens too.  

Stretch marks: Nothing yet.... I have found one little mark I can't tell if it's the beginning of a stretch mark or just a vein visible through my skin.  I'm going with the latter!

Sleep: Is a fickle, fickle bitch!  At this point I'm just used to being awake multiples times a night trying to get comfortable. Poor hubs... I wake him up all the time now.  Then he asks if I'm ok and I get annoyed he's talking to me in the middle of the night cause I'm freaking tired.  He just can't win.  My belly is starting to feel heavy when trying to lay on my side so I need a pillow stuffed underneath it for support. I've also found sleeping almost in a sitting up position helps too... especially with the acid reflux.  I'm beyond just heartburn... that's another lovely reason I wake up.  Food coming up my throat!   

Best moment this week? Well, we got to see the babes pretty good about two weeks ago at our follow up fetal imaging appointment.  Both were being a bit stubborn though facing inward and down so we couldn't get any of those cute face shots or 3D.  We had our last birthing class last week too.  I'm really glad we did them.  We learned so much information not just about birth but on breast feeding and what to expect in the hospital as far as what the babes will go through!  Some of it was scary but I think it's good to know what lies ahead.  Plus we got to tour both hospitals here as part of the classes which I liked.  We are most likely going with a scheduled c-section and learning all that makes me feel a little more prepared.

OH!  And!  I was told about a multiples group a few weeks ago so Hubs and I went and checked it out one night at a dinner they had.  It was pretty cool.  The best part was the couple we met who live like 2-3 miles away from us who had 4 week old boy/girl twins!  We spent most of our time chatting with them. It was so nice to meet another couple in the same boat we are in, especially one so close!  They were also really open about their birth, breast feeding, struggles, etc.  Nothing was sugar coated which I liked.  We traded digits but I totally FB stalked her a few days later :) .    

My friend with three boys gave me three, count them THREE, 30-gallon totes stuffed with boy clothes, all sorted by size of course.  I've only made it through the 0-6 month tote but oh man is it fun going through all the stuff.  It's not like they make ugly baby clothes... am I right?!?!?

Miss anything: I'm not really missing wine as much anymore.  It's been so long anyway!  I think the only thing I'm missing right now is sugary sweet treats.  I did my one-hour glucose test and was too high by 5 points. That doesn't necessarily mean that I have gestational diabetes, but it warrants going for the god-awful 3 hour test to see if infact I really do have GD.  Well, I went for my 3 hour test on Saturday and failed MISERABLY.  I had to fast for 12 hours, so I ate dinner and then got up and was at the lab right at 7am when they opened.  You can't eat until the test is over so I knew I couldn't eat until 10am at the earliest.  They took my fasting blood draw and then gave me the double-size glucose drink I had to chug.  Then, the plan was to draw my blood every hour for three hours to see how my body processes the shit-ton of sugar I ingested.  30 minutes after chugging my lovely fruit punch concoction (think of drinking red melted freezer pops) I started to get sweaty and light headed in the lobby.  Luckily I made it to the bathroom on time where I then proceeded to projectile vomit it all back up.  Go me!  Apparently it makes lots of women sick but because I didn't keep it down they couldn't do my other blood draws.  I have to call my OB tomorrow to let her know.  I'm PRAYING they don't want me to try again.  We've already thrown every piece of candy and sweets we had in the house in the trash over a week ago and I've been watching my sugar intake since then.  

Movement: It's freaking awesome, I'm not going to lie.  I get sad thinking how one day very soon I won't feel them inside me anymore.  They are getting big enough now that my belly will get totally lopsided when one of the babes decides to push out against my tummy.  I can feel baby girl much more now than before too... I don't know if the placenta can move or not (that seems ridic) so I think she is just getting stronger.  Plus, you can see lots of movement from the outside as well.  It's kind of like a scene out of alien.  I just sit and watch it a lot.  Oh, and the top of my belly has started going numb!  I asked my doctor's nurse about it and thankfully it's totally normal.  Since everything is getting stretched out, including my nerves, it's not uncommon to have spots with less feeling.    

Food cravings: The sweet stuff.... but now I'm not really having it so it's hard.  A little ice cream here or there, or a few chocolate covered pretzels.... but no just eating a whole Ben N Jerry's anymore.  sigh.

Belly button in or out? I'm going to call it a halfsie... it's like half in and half out.  Not full on popped out like a turkey timer thingy on Thanksgiving, but it is sooo close.  LOL.  Did you know that your belly button doesn't really have any sensation in it?  You're welcome.

Wedding rings: on or off? On and it's starting to leave marks.  At night it's almost impossible to get it off.  I can't imagine not wearing it!

Looking forward to: Everything, I swear.  I am looking forward to the delivery and having our babes here.  We are planning one last weekend to the bay here in the next few weeks so that will be nice too. Baby shower is just around the corner and I seriously am so freaking excited about that!  The nursery is almost done, I have baby clothes washed and folded...  so much!  We are starting to see the OB a little more frequently now... every 3 weeks which then shortly be every 2 weeks.  Our next fetal imaging appointment we should be able to get 3D shots.  Baby names... we are narrowed down but nothing is set in stone yet.  My mom will be coming soon, maternity leave, summer with the babes.  The only thing I'm worried about is them having to be in the NICU, otherwise I truly am looking forward to it all.

We did do our registry two weeks ago.  That was completely exhausting and overwhelming.  So much stuff to consider! Twice last week I came home to boxes left at the front door of gifts purchased off the registry in surprise.  I cried.  The generosity is just too much.  Both times were gifts from Hubs' work... the owner of his company even!  The love and support we feel from those around is amazing.  

Hubs got these... there are no words.

My first babe!

One of our gifts.  I am really looking forward to making

food for the babes.

Yes, we got TWO of these bad boys!

It converts all the way up to a booster seat for toddlers.

SuperBowl Sunday! 

27 weeks exactly- sending my mom selfies!

Baby girl at 27w- bending her elbow so hand is up

at her face.

Baby boy at 27w- up close face shot of him looking

straight at you.  Small black circle on right side is

the right eye socket.